Poocha's blues

Chap 1 : Letter to Poocha

Dear Poo,

i dunno what to tell u.....my mishti-doi....:)

Thanks for listening.....umm...not so patiently though....but then again it was such an inflammatory subject that i like wanted to escape midway.....:))

If u think i'm good @ this , thank u for the compliments....takin a bow.....:))

Yes, i am good @ this stuff.....n even though li'l-Bij may seem like the maverick "Hitch"

i have some talent on my own .....i'm on the panel for some forums also ....the self-help kinds.....solely @ the request of the starter.....:))

Little did i know that i'll have to give advice closer home......i mean its reallly sad doin that.......I'm ur love ..........n its no fun bein ur love-guru telling u how to keep ur guy.

in fact it sucks.....coz then i feel like i'm spoon-feeding u...even imposing my thoughts on u.......which i never wanna do.....:))

So thats that......hope it came out well......i care 4 u....love u beyond measure but not this......pleaseeee...:) As in of course u can SOS me....

but u dunno wat i go thru......its killing....trust me....to keep urself aside n then talk to u from a 3rd persons perspective......noooooo....i don't wanna understand anything babe....don't wanna listen to no reason.....i'm thru ....i want u!!

Its really bad listenin 2 ppl's problems but u know wat.....its really tough wen ur dealing with such unseen under-the-table emotions in ur own life......i mean do u have any idea to hear ur girl tell u .....n try to give u covincing reasons to let u know....how bad she wants this other guy....takin him outta her life would burn her.....n that she can't bear to lose him.....

Sometimes i feel....y me??.....as in y am i in the triangle...(that dreaded figure in geometry).......and wat am i doin here....i didn't want this....why am i goin thru this.....i was pretty clear when i was goin in that my girl was single....then wats all this truckload of unwanted emotions doin here....do i need this....do i desrve this??.....

My fingers are goin numb even as i punch my helpless heart out in the keyboard infront of me.....teeth chattering ....reminding me of every moment of the pain life is ...the struggle the fight that life is....n that nothing is wat it seems.....

Pooh-bear's sad n lonely....:( Pooh needs a hug....:(

n most of all poocha...his- Poocha...

Yours as always,

Pooh-bear.

More of that coming up....adios amigos